devastated

I am so upset this morning. My poor dog is going to have to have surgery on her other knee. It is killing me. Not only is it the expense (which is HUGE) but it is all the pain she is in now without the surgery and all the pain she will be in after the surgery. I was hoping we could make it till after xmas so she wouldn't have to be confined during the holidays (she will have to be confined to a crate for 6 weeks after surgery). But her poor little knee has started making a popping noise every time she takes a step. She must be in a lot of pain because she hasn't been movign around much this weekend. Usually she follows me from room to room, but this weekend she would just sit in the same place. We went for a walk on Sunday and she wanted to go so bad, she sat and watched us from the window. It broke my heart.

I can't believe my little puppy is getting older. She drives me crazy sometimes, but the thought that she might not be here forever kills me.